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hello

2005-03-09T16:36:00.000+08:00

hi... at the sch comp lab now ~~ long time no blog here... computer crazy le ` but stl using this blog bahs.... next time... k bye~~

shits virus

2005-01-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

shits.. the norton antivirus cd i borrowed from emi ..... i think got prob wif my comp!! blahhs!! pissed ~~ sooner or later my comp is gonna fall sick again!! great. grrs. my report would be revealed tmr!! oka i took abt 5hrs nap. feel energetic now. so im gonna make use of this time to study!! damns my comp is damn laggy now. bOos!! goodnight av8d (:

yayas

2005-01-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

blahhs!! first time pon until my heart thump thump thump so fast ... hees... waaaa...... tossed a coin to decided whether to pon... so happie cus it follows my heart... hehs =\ BUT in the end mrs chee saw me in the detention room!!! i don't dare to look back at her after that... and whatever blahhs blahhs... feel kinda pissed in sch todae... no idea why.. and anyway i passed my bio test ~~ god bless- i thought i was the one who got 12/40.. phews` worn out... >.< i've been sleeping like 5 to 6 hours these 2 days but no concentration in class!!! toopid!! i guess i can onli focus if i sleep 2 to 3hours... bOos.. so hon has a new target la...... i think mine is stl the best (((: lols.... 2tests tmr ~~ hurrays.. and it's the end of the wk!! hoho!!! *smiles*

da sucks

2005-01-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

gonna enlist help from big bro during this weekend.. reali totally don't know what's happening in static electricity.. clubhouse is a nice place to sleep... but too cold.... >.< ~~ so i got a darling now la..... lols. shhs.... and someone is fcukingly pissed with someone else la...... cool down ((: hees.. it'll be alright after you wake up tmr... damns... DA session tmr again... SIANS 100% !!!! not sians 1/2 onli k... sighs.. hate DA.. can i not attend.. anyway im not gonna gain any benefits from there... BUT.. whatever.. people always look forward to their CCA but i don't.. simply no interest in it anymore.. SUCKS.... i dread every wednesdays... ))):

slack

2005-01-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

slack........ wasted my time sleeping in the clubhouse... couldnt be least bothered with my posture... hees. too tired =X well we entered the gym at 10pm... great. so S gets attracted to C when C touches the surface of S la..... static electricity (((: hahas... some people will get what i mean (:

i think hon and i are the best.... she tops... im second... i sleep an avg of 3hours/day... sighs.. i do wonder how i survived with this.. perhaps i slept too much during holidays... talked to her til 3++am .... and i dozed off... toopid!! i study for the differentiation test ~~~ >.< could haf slept much earlier... sobs... hates reproduction of plants.. i hate anyth to do with plants .. grrs... toopid chpt... saw meiyee in the void deck jus nw.. ard 11pm... lols` kk byebyebye.... sara told me abt the 12th night ... their literature book.. haa.. quite interesting... ((: all abt love~~

not dying

2005-01-17T16:47:00.000+08:00

ok ok... im not dying.... im jus worried i haf kidney failure or diabetes mellitus.... and what's worst cancer... mentioned by meiyee.. lols` went for the ultrasound scan... the woman assured me it'll be nothing much of a problem.. BUT.... it's my blood im concerned with i guess.. anyway i jus asked hon if she'll cry when i die.. haa... all of you must cry if i die k? ^^ bullshit... haa. prays lots**** i'll be healthy ... (((:

gonna score badly for the p&c test ... sighs. whatta relaxing week haa.. no chem test...differentiation test postponed.. yays* an apple a day keeps the doctor away ^^ alrights im leaving for the gym.... keke.. by the way i came across this love story.... so funny... all the leads in the story are so toopid. haa.

shit mood

2005-01-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

darn irritated and pissed off by some idiotic people. grrs. don't know how i gotta know them. grrs. like some toopid sharon tan and gang. damn.... why is there sucha vast difference between my sch friends and energy friends?? sucks.... bloody pissed ... there's onli a handful of people worthed to be called friends.. the rest are jus plain shit. currently in a shit mood.. blahhs. fakos... toopid..

prank clal

2005-01-16T13:58:00.000+08:00

wahhs.. suddenly so many ppl join my kuajidao (((: thanks muacks muacks!! read grace's blog and realised that fridae is PE dae!! omgs!!! this means that no PE next week!! wahhahahas =X alrights... kinda saddds. but..... ya... hmms. gonna shop with ky next week... ohyeas passing me the o lvl chinese paper~~ woke up early todae... must thank the person who prank call me with lehui's phone.. lols..... i think it's chunfen... haa. but no im not angry this time.. cus if she didnt call, i might haf slept til 3pm....

ok i don't understand a single thing abt static electricity.. had been living in my own world during punita's lessons... grrs. serve me right )): im gonna read up bio chpt 15 now cus i daydream in diana's lessons too. and im gonna fail toopidly like last yr for the recent test. i know i will..... sighs. whatta disappointment... shall work hard for bio... would study differentiation aft tt.. then S.S hwk... blahhs.. go gym... yays* sighs. sometimes i get jealous over toopid things. don't know whyyyyyy ~ tooopid gurl. ):

toopid

2005-01-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

tooopid. all cus hon wanted the scroll to lith, i had to play MS today... grrs. wasted my time >.< ... 1 week onli can play once ..... ((: slept at 4am last night... wahhs. and woke up at 2pm.... then slept at 4 or 5pm.... until 9pm... crazeee!!! piggie zhuzhu !! bOoos. i need to study for tests and complete hwks!!! ahhhs!! 2amaths test on monday... chem test on tues.. chinese test on thursday... whatta great sec4 life ((: a good news ~ coming fridae is a public holidae!! yays* i pray that my medical report would be fine.... sighs. i wonder how's the ultrasound scan works... saddds.

hahas

2005-01-15T01:59:00.000+08:00

wahahhaahas =X mc.com is mercury computer system >.< great the 3 of you are flooding my board. lols- well i returned home ard 11pm... saw a cute boy at the clubhouse.. so we played with him. he asked me many WHYS.... "why the cat is pregnant?" , "why must i park my bicycle here?" , "why the cat cannot jump in the swimming pool but we can?" i told him not to loiter far from his dad when i was abt to leave for the gym... and he asked me, "why adults can walk far far away, but i cannot? " , "why you can walk far far?", "why the cars have 4wheels and my bicycle also 4wheels?" , "why cannot ride 3wheels?" lols... i had a hard time answering his qns haha... though i enjoyed it ((: love kids!!! muacks!!

hon fell down just now.. lols. she didnt even step on the bike and immediately she rode down a slope and fortunately she crashed into a metal railing or whatever... it's like she was behind sara initially but end up overtaking her and fell down.. haa. it was truly a close shave !! she could haf been knocked down if a car drove out of the carpark... and had she not knocked into the railings,e could haf rolled from the road down a bush into the carpark...

just now went back to sch......... saw a shuai ge from ncc land.. i think he's younger than us.. shd be sec one or twos... haa. celebrations!!!! CCAs will cease by april for graduating students!!! hurrays!!! muacks!! love the principal.... hees.. 10 more DA sessions and i can leave DA for good!!! great ya (((:

blood prob

2005-01-14T13:29:00.000+08:00

SIGHS...... hear me??? damn it.. i reali got problem... but i don't think it's some deadly disease.... to those who can't wish i'd die sooner, don't gloat over it first ((: damn it... got an appointment on monday .. grrs. need to do ultrasound... wows great for physics....? hees.. what im afraid is that the doctor would be a GUY..... few years ago it's so freakingly embarrassing to be checked by a male doctor ... grrs. alrights i took blood test just now... and omgs.... $150 for a blood test... ultrasound also around that sum of money ~~ sians. waiting for the report to be out.. hope it's not serious... anyway this explains why i've not grown taller for 4yrs.. and keeps growing FATTER... damn it ~~ ))): so saddds. you know how lucky it is to be healthy ~~~ so don't take for granted for ur health... TAKE CARE or i'll kill you...... must take healthy meals k~ gonna make a healthy wish for everyone during my bdae... and im reali DAMN SAD cus i think im not eligible for donating blood .... freakingly UPSET. im also afraid that i would need people's blood even before i can donate... going to sch to do some work now... ytd when i decided not to come it's like i told them buy MC $5 ~~ and now what the heck mans.. $150 for an MC .... (((: funny.

limins bdae

2005-01-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

this is not too late. happie bdae dear limin!!!! *smiles* poo's bdae's round the corner too~~ haa

spare tyre!!! bOoos!!! humpfhs. perhaps i mistook that feeling... haa. stupid!! oka today didnt go gym.... ))): onli did some work in clubby... "the philosopher" is like, WAHAHAHAHAS =X great joke. keke. haven collect taufik's title... grrs. gotta ask grace get it for me if possible.. hehs. sorry for making her and shuting angry ~~ BUT sighs.. you people already knew that i'm a gurl who does silly things at wrong times what. im stl childish.... hasnt grown up mentally.... always doing stupid things asking stupid qns... this is annabel .... hahaa. anyway mum's bringing me for medical check up tmr... yays* i hope can do a blood test if i had contracted any disease.... hope im perfectly alright.. cus i want to donate blood this yr... applicable already k!!! (((: feel like eating tomyam noodles..... sara tempted meeeee ))): hehs.

toro in sg??!

2005-01-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

omgs` i think my talented idol came to sg for holiday.... how great. had the urge to look for him when i heard of it... but my brain tells me i can't... it's my new year resolution.. blahhs` gotta shop for new clothes soon... perhaps this or next wkend... sians... waste of time... though shopping stl rawkks ((: sadd.... it's rather difficult to have toro in singapore and depriving myself from seeing him... sighs... not as easy i guess.. but i've gotta learn to get used to it... heees

sighs

2005-01-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

it's like so disappointing to know that someone forgets you ))): stupid shelin. we used to hang out with her , sean, weiming, mingcong and my cousins what!!! grrs. so YOU.... YOU.... better not forget me k..... hehs. alrights papaya was my dinner tonight. slouched at the sofa in clubby... sara meiyee and me fell asleep =.=+ ... tired >.< earlier on melvin and minz were there... something amusing happened... it was like i knew melvin was gonna voice out his comments for something and phews` i swallowed my water before he spoke... lols-

managed to watch the last 5mins of happie fish ytd. sadds )): last drama of mr xie shao guang??? hmms... now that stupid fann wong show.. blahhs. seldom watch the tv anw... there's simply no time... i'm gonna fail my first bio test this yr... *claps* BADLY i know... sighs... guilty... last year i failed terribly and i rmb dianah saying "some people did the exam as if they had never learnt bio for the entire year at all. their answers were riduculous!" ... oh wells.. i guess she must be referring to me cus i get F9 k... thankews *smiles*

did i reali forget abt him..... or am i forcing myself.... or the feeling is gone....? i wanna cut hair!!!! bOos.... don't know if that day will arrive... it's like 10more months and i hafta part with my sec sch friends... fate brought us together and then we had to say BYE after 4yrs... time is up./.... sighs.

gagaga

2005-01-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

didnt stay at sara's clubby til 10plus cus my dad's at home.. blahhs` i drank soup for dinner!!! so happie... got nutrients inside.. lols- i hope i'll fall real sick on fridae.. then can skip sch... yays* i also drank about 5sips of root beer after gymmmm..... ahhhs!!!! all cus of saraaa!!! >.< ... and you know what... she gave me a box of sweets, with sugar as the outer covering... grrs... i've asked my mum to hide it somewhr i wouldnt see.. hees.. it's okae actuali.. cus i crave onli for chocos!!! (((: chocos rawkk!! yummies- but i cannot eat for the time being.. so sadddd )): hafta slp alone tonight... scared wil be haunted by the dream again.. sighs. and hello my light bulb fused already.. the onli light source in my room is...... errr..... my study desk light ^^

SMS-ed indri to find out if she's okay... i know it's far too late but it's better than never sending my concern over to her ya... phews` luckeee she and silvia's location is far from aceh... suddenly miss her alot !! my pri sch frens.. hees.. perhaps i shd phone up wy to ask her abt dieting.. hmms.. but so long didnt "keng gai" on phone .... would feel weird somehow... sighs ` and i think i don't have time to meet up with min to study in library!!! ahhhs~~` like so busy everydae can. my daily lifestyle is very packed.. haa. BIO test . amaths and phy hwk due tmr.. sians-

i miss you toro!!! i stl love my talented idol.... hehs. don't think i've erased him outta my mind ya... keke..

life 's precious

2005-01-11T16:35:00.000+08:00

bOos!!! feel like dropping bio ~~ to haf more time for phy and chem.. cus my bio sucks big time.. >.< ... but on the other hand, it means giving up a subject which i studied for a yr !!! and also depriving me from a miracle!!! whatever.....

i suffered terribly last night =\ was reading the tsunami articles repeatedly and draft til 2am.. sleep... the DREAM IS HAUNTING me again... sighs` same old dream.. for an hour. apparently i had 2hrs of slp. cus i woke at 5am to write the essay.. i reali wonder what's wrong with me... why do i get these same old dreams whenever i get stressed up? and.... perhaps i was too strict with my body... i felt reali sick this morning.. think cus i skipped my lunch and dinner for a few days... don't feel like coming initially.. but i can't afford to slack now.. see i'm sucha good student now (((:

there's too many reasons for me to go on a diet and ill treat myself now... don't stop me... hehs... most imptly, i wanna cut my hair short short!!! keke.. don't like long hair.. >.<>VERY VERY EXREMELY chubby than i am now if i were to cut it short... blahhs` and also i don't want myself to haf kidney problems or whatever in time to come.. must take care of myself (((: life is precious ^^ yays* off to gym!!!

sharon sucks

2005-01-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

basically, i've done nothing today... grrs!!! so frustrated abt the letter writing!!! i haven finish reading the articles.. blahhs` sighs- was darn pissed with sharon's mum just now. i don't wish to vent my anger on her cus it's her daughter im running aft... but she's just so unreasonable. damn it.. now sharon's friend is telling me ACTUALI SHE OWES ME $60 onli.... craps. i don't know why she wanna take the rap for her friend.. dumbo.. grrs// so where am i gonna get the 100$ odd back?????!!! think it's ard $150... sighs.. everything is owed by sharon lor. and i warned her mum i shall handle it to the police if they stl dun1 to return... and she says OK LOR. handle to police lor. shit her... like mother like daughter.. anw i asked her to convey my msg to her daughter NOT TO AVOID MY CALLS ANM. stupid. ahhhhs@@ off to do the essay... boring life >.<

saraaaa

2005-01-10T16:27:00.000+08:00

before it slips out of my mind again, i'd better blog it right now... this is dedicated to sara!!!! happie 15th birdday!!! lols- annabel is great. great. great ((: she doesnt wanna care abt him anm. good .... must persist.... gees... she'll listen to her mum... yays* and i'm so proud now cus uncle told grace to be like me, stay at home study ... wahahahhaas=X uncle is asking the top student in our class to follow me!!!! omgs` so happie.... might visit filming with grace if i want... cus ben might be there... haa... and i wishhhhh ngee ann poly openhouse faster arrive... i want see PY !!! hehs... me and hon's shuai ge... keke..

protect me

2005-01-10T15:37:00.000+08:00

watched part of the charity show while we were in the gym... my tears almost fell while i did the stepper.. simply lurve the song "bao you wo" by z chen... glued my eyes to the tv and appreciate the entire song... one word to describe the song: beautiful ~

was mugging physics last night ... reached home at 11plus... i reali enjoy the serenity while walking home last night.. ((: bathed and continue mugging til 3am... siaos... woke at 5am to continue.. blahhs. so hardworking can. i'm very satisfied with myself now.. cus i know phy sec 3 syllabus already.. lols =X except for thermal energy... i hate that chpt!!! >.< hope i can find time to revise sec 3 syllabus for chem and bio too.. worried for my bio lols.. nearly fell asleep while watching the video... so boring can. then i thought of ben... need him now LOLS.. hope he can tuition us... or else i'll find big bro..

haa. deciding whether to bathe at sara's place next time.. hmms.. wednesday bio test.. friday p&c test.. sians- might pon on friday.... need more time for my gym and diet.. dillema to PON or NOT to PON!!!! but i said i wouldnt play truant anymore.. grrs. need to do letter writing on tsunami... sighs... !!!! due tmr!!! ahhhhs~

sadds

2005-01-09T18:21:00.000+08:00

saddds.. sadds... sad...

don't wanna do compo... no idea how to do.. too many doubts abt it... i'm onli at chpt 7 of physics... grrs. why sucking will increase vol of lungs??? sighs... gotta ask someone ltr.. hmms.. stl haf 9 more chpts to go!! tmr's the test... whole of sec 3 syllabus... omgs` TYS qns somemore... and i haven gone to the gym!!!! sara and minz at bugis haa.. gonna mug into midnight ... sians- cannot watch the charity show... ))): too busy already... haa... i love this hardworking gurl (((: i'll love her even more if she forgets abt that stupid guy and put 100% in her studies. =/

grrs

2005-01-09T13:37:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna care anm!!! whoever knows the him, don't talk abt him anm in frt of me anm!!!! (words of anger) i'm determined to give up....i'm reali angry. this is beyond my tolerance.. i'll grant him if he reali wants . stupid. i hate my flat!!! i can't sleep peacefully every now and then ok!! weekend is the onli time i can enjoy my sleep BUT construction starts ard 8am... STUPID!!! grrs. similar to nx's nick, i feel SO NEAR YET SO FAR ...............................

sean

2005-01-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

grrs.. im very angry now.. for 2 reasons.. one is a stupid reason.. another is a reasonable reason. =/ forget abt him FORGET. actuali sean was my classmate' s bf 's friend. how coincidental huhs. haa. it's like me and my classmate studying in the east... sean and him studying in the west... but we're sorta linked? what a small world after all. that time i asked my classmate to get his bf's year book for me.... cus i wanted to photocopy sean's photo... lols.. i got the book but didnt photocopy it.. sighs... if not i can remember how he looks like.... and i wonder how is SHAUN now!!! lols.. it's his 1st week of sch.. primary one.. can't imagine him carrying a bag going to sch.. he must be real mischievous and giving the teachers problems ... keke.. and my dear clarissa...... she wanted to make me a pizza that time i talked to her on the phone... lols =X love my younger cousins man... i can see baby claraaa on 26th jan!! muahahhahas !!!! ((:

dt's leaving

2005-01-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

didnt meet up wif hon ... haa.. i took my lunch and went to sleep again.. until 5pm... piggy zhuzhu... lols =X woke up and settle my hwk LIST... then brought my hwks to sara's place.. gym for 1 hr.... and stayed in the clubhouse til 10.30 at night... cool ~~ i love the security guard!!!! he's so cuteee!!! ((: i miss my grandfather... alrights anw i walked home alone... bOos.. i enjoy walking on alone at night.. it's a good time to contemplate abt my problems.. i was very pissed with the amaths differentiation hwk just now.. all my answers are wrong!!! stupid..

toro left a long long msg... one of typhoon's members had diarrhoea aft eating the food he cooked.. LOLS... he's also going to vietnam and indonesia to promote xts.. haa.. all the best to him (((: don't know what happened to dt.. she's like so upset and she's not gonna come online for a period of time already.. i'll miss her!!! she's one of my best taiwan pals although i stl don't think im that close with her.. chatted with her awhile just now.. she told me it takes a lifetime to forget someone, isnt it? well i told her, it wouldnt take a lifetime if u can find somebody else to rely on.. sighs.. but she says this person is ONE she can never forget. what i think is... perhaps she's too in love with him currently that she thinks she'll never forget him.. grrs.. angry with that guy.. stupid. i hope she shares her woes with yj tmr.. and i'll listen to her!!!!! she asked me to study hard and get good grades.. hehs.. (((: i hope by the time she forgets the guy, i can haf some achievement... hees.. hope so ~~

morning!

2005-01-08T13:12:00.000+08:00

hmms.. my block is repainted... white and pink ~~~ wahs.. similar to my house colour combination... hees... too bad i'm moving out soon.. ))): slept at 4am last night.. played MS after like a week ... forgot which to press to attack and whatever.. i'm reali sorry whenever at party quest cus i always seem so blurr. haa. and this morning, somebody knocked on my door for MANY times but i didnt open cus im stl in bed.. wanted to let the person think there's nobody at home.. but he didnt give up. STUPID!!!! grrs. he almost tore down my room window!!! bOOoss!!! *angry* knock and knock until im real pissed. no choice but to wake up and that guy wanted me to shift the flower pots and everything.. grrs.. can't they shift them on their own... in the end i just keeped the slippers cus i told them i've no idea how to shift the pots.. hafta wait my mum to be back or my dad to wake up 1st.... blahhs` stupid la. luckily i had enough sleep ((: mum cooked lunch ~~ yays. meeting hon ltr and sara too ~~~ intensive grm training. wahhhahaas =X

failure as a friend

2005-01-08T01:36:00.000+08:00

i think im sucha failure as a friend... ))): didnt remember their bdaes although they wished me./... even if i remember, i forgot to sms or call to wish them... sighs. looked through my hp inbox.... sooo many ppl wished me last yr.... i think i onli wish 3 out of all... and some of them i dun even know their bdaes... grrs.. angry wif myself for neglecting my friends... thats why i decided to record down .... hees... and also alan from qnps.. if he didnt write the testimonial the last time we saw each other was in genting, i don't think i can rmb haa. it was so coincidental to see him there!!!!!!! hehs... i think he added me a long time ago in friendster.. but i realised he's my friend onli recently.. lols. anyway nice to see him here aft 4yrs!! ^^ ... we were in the same class in pri2.. hohoho. it's like 8yrs back???!!! keke... anyway, im trying real hard to rmb ur bdaes k..... sara's on monday... min's on 16th right.. hehs.. i made the effort to find out (((: !!!!

sighs....

2005-01-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

sighs... fiona had decided to give up the role... anyway i LOVE her entries... they're so sentimental (((: i guess i can onli wish her success and happiness in whatever she's gonna do in future... min asked me to library to study next week.. hees... but i'm not free yet.. we'll meet on the 3rd week i hope!!! i wonder if jess and xr had be employed ... reali hope so!!!! to give me some hopes aft my o lvls!!! didnt obey xr to look through chinese handbook during holidays... >.< feel guilty... bOos.

sauna was okay... though it hasnt reached 70degree celsius... haa.... dipped myself into the furo bath... sooo relaxing (((: had a hearty chat wif sara in the clubhouse til 8plus.... wahhahhaas =X stupid me ~~ fell in love with someone im not supposed to... haaa.....i miss sean ~~~ blahhs..... a mere lie???? =/ sean is reali reali reali nice (: bOos..... gonna fast for a week.... BUT onli for dinner... hehs.

time's tight

2005-01-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

time's tight... blahhs. circular measure test tmr... chem hwk to be handed in tmr... i'm gonna study this weekend.. (((: i love the security guard in sara's clubhouse!!! he's so NICE can!!! "machiam" my grandfather... hees.. going to sauna tmr... wahhahas =X don't know can take it or not ~ i've a feeling i can finally let it go... not going to wait tonight.. i'm too busy to care so much currently.. grrs, feeling unwell ))): didnt liuyan to mr toro kuo for 3days already... at energy@toro.. onli liuyan at my kuajidao... hehs.. thats the onli place i can safely blog abt my feelings...

sean

2005-01-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

sean cheng. how does he look like..... hope my cousins don't pass by my blog... grrs... i stl remember his stupid bdae...... december... haa. how to get his contact ?? hmms... mr december just phoned me to ask history.. = =+ he and lehui need to write that stupid essay or what.. as punishment... so sorry couldnt help him cus im hopeless in history okaes.. lols..

miracles

2005-01-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

everytime i come home.... my mood changes from joy to gloom... or maybe from gloom to devastation... sch wif friends is a better place i suppose... i cried upon reading something just now.. sighs... bad mood. anyway, jus returned from sara's hse... gym again.. yeas she's my listening ear ((: miracles are constantly happening in our daily lifes... remember... don't give up any hopes ~ went for DA meeting today... were the last ones to arrive,.... though our classroom is already beside the lab... lols =X gotta phone sec one students to invite them to DA session next wk = =+ .... decided to make some contribution... cus we reali slacked a lot in ccas..

we're the graduating classes... grrs... saw the timeline ms chua gave us ytd... running out of time... sighs... there's amaths test on friday... ))): many hwks i don't have the mood to touch... feel like sleeping to forget my worries.. sighs.. impossible. sometimes during lesson time or free time, i would just stare at the blank space and then i'll fall deep into my thoughts... boos.. so much for giving up idol(toro) chasing... and now my focus on studies had been diverted to something else.... stupid..... you're so STUPID!!! >.<

pissed

2005-01-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

pissed.... wanted to do the yin yong wen BUT i think hon took my set of tsunami notes home... grrs... great. how to do yin yong wen now??? and hon's sub science paper is with me... tmr hafta hand in.. grrs!!! why am i holding on to her hwk and she holding on to my notes!!!! stupid,......

i'm lost in this vast abyss.... nobody understands... nobody knows where and what's the key i need right now.. nobody's willing to help... nobody's my listening ear...nobody... i might seem to joke abt it but im reali serious... saddds- i'm just not myself. every night before i fall into deep sleep, i spent a lot of time trying to analyse and forget.... it's a reality nightmare.. i wish i wish i reali do wishhhhhhhh to forget........ i misssss sean. i dun want to be tortured for another day.... grrs.... well sean IS VERY LIKELY in NS alrd.. he's 19 this yr.. wows.. old alrd... annabel pls grow up and control your BRAIN..... the stupidest person is one who carries on the mistake.. blahhs. wake up ANNABEL!!!!!!

stupidd

2005-01-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

bOoos... very TIRED ))): tues is a long day for us... till 3.50pm... it rained... so i stayed back wif grace and hon to do hwk.... in fact, i didnt touch at all... blahhs.. left for sara's hse at 5plus... gym... hees.. and guess what... i was walking out of the carpark, when a car stopped in front of me and that guy inside waved to me.. = =+ ..... mr latiff lols.... wahhahahas =X such coincidence... he's driving out of sara's apartment.. hmms.. what was he doing there.... lols =X

i realised that there's many hwk due tmr.... shats... im too tired to do... shall sleep til abt 3am then wake up and do.... sighs... hectic life.. bOoos... hate it. lmaos when watching pck and living wif lydia... stupid..... i feel so tortured... >.< at one moment, i don't wanna give up.. and then i want to... cus it doesnt benefit me at all even if i cling on to it... annabel says: you'll be living in the mood of his/hers once you're in LOVE. sighs. i miss sean!!! blahhs.. very curious how he looks like now... and the stupid HIM is very stupid... i don't want to live this kinda life......... stupid.. anyway i reali hope to know sean's whrabts.... it had been 5yrs... maybe he went for NS already..

2005-01-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

silly me >.< im jus as silly. sighs... oka i read up my horoscope... studies not bad.. hope so ((: i took a long nap just now .... couldnt wake when sara phoned me... bOoos... haa. then my mum irritated me at 7pm to take my dinner... tmd.. i was darn furious!!!! shouted at her like nobody's business , asking her IF SHE KNOWS SHE'S VERY IRRITATING OR NOT... kinda harsh ... but, i reali hate ppl disturb me while im asleep..

quite a few of my friends are using the same blogskin as fiona... lols.. well i think she just got her blog.. after reading her latest entry, i have this feeling she's gonna give up her job.. but i reali hope she'll take up the role in that whatever new drama... sighs.. i know it might be reali tough cus not many ppl like her after all these years... BUT there're stl a portion of us who supports her !! there're stl people who wants to see her acting!!! whatever it is, i'll support her decision... but frankly speaking, i DO HOPE she doesn't give up.. i think she should consider abt her fans too...

i think that guy in top fun is MAD... his brain is reali screwed up.. he had lost his control okaes... sighs.. feeling BLUE again... i reali feel stupid... why hang on when you know it's impossible... stupid. stupid. i must focus on my studies.. not anything else... hais.. feel like sobbing under my blanket and contemplate how am i gonna let it go seriously... but it's difficult for me to put away everything within a night ya... BLUE... so BLUE....

1st day of sch

2005-01-03T15:00:00.000+08:00

1st day of school... bOoos... ))): new principal ... and the school is VERY STRICT with its rules.... had to change my shoelace and socks... thats all.. unlike last yr, i rmb i was caught for my untidy fringe on the 1st day.. haa. lessons as usual after recess... boring... tests are coming up very soon.. with an extra bio... arrghs.. i'm turning 16 on 19th march... ahhhhs!!! old.... i love being 15 (((: and i wonder if we can watch NC16 movies already... lols.. by the way, my index number become 29!!!! stupid... so far back.. everything happened tdy was stupid.... i feel so distracted in class... daydreaming....... extremely exhausted. wanna go sara's gym ltr... exercise!!!!

sch

2005-01-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

bored... it's like 2am now... everyone offline at 11plus... = =+ ... why so "guai" ... >.< left me alone online ... bOoos... finished circular measure.. gonna study maths already... ))): and yays** suhua's not asleep yet !! she just phoned me a few mins ago... lols.. my best companion in the midnight !! hohoho. kinda nervous for sch ... hees.. i hope i won't be obsessed with my computer this year... i didnt play MS for a day ... hahahaa. good good.. ((:

circular measure

2005-01-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

sch's reopening tmr ~~ ahhhHhhhs... stl doing circular measure... blahhs.. i've decided to study P&C and problem solving tonight... then continue with chem hwk... but i don't think i will succeed in studying problem solving... it's so difficult !!! >.<> slacking currently doing circular measure ~ don't know if anyone can accompany don't sleep or not ..... hope suhua hasn't finish her hwk and stay up til morning 6am ~~~ hehs....... this reminded me of our art work 2yrs ago... we did til 5am in the morning.... lols... i'm not gonna let this kinda experience happen again ~

misunderstanding

2005-01-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

bOoos.. i realised a misunderstanding can be resulted in my previous entry.... the HIM and the TOOT are different persons. lols.... cannot edit entry ))): sucks....

sighs.. last beauty slp

2005-01-02T17:26:00.000+08:00

SIGHS...... this is gonna be my last beauty slp before o lvl??? i guess so... bOoos... 12hours onli ))))): 5am to 5pm. i rejected that "toot" who asked us out.... cus i want to enjoy this last day!!!! blahhs. dreamt of him last night ~ and i cried cus he was on the verge of dying. what an unlucky dream >.<>circular measure tonight. by hook or by crook!!! arrghs. and depends on my mood whether i wanna study for tests or do chemistry hwk.... anyway i don't think i'll slp today.... more people are starting to believe that im determined to study hard this year. wahahhahas =X i dreamt that my PSLE aggregate is 256 lols.... blahhs. sucha huge difference = =+ 240 - 256 ....

long entry

2005-01-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

okaes... i've deleted 19 ppl in my msn list... left 131 onli.... lols.. and i quit 36 jiazus, now there's onli 65 left.. hehs... great (((: toro liuyan...... his mum is cantonese.. haa.. anyway he typed in english "happy new year all my people" ... love him... hees.. saw uncle chia in fareast just now... after shopping in robinsons... i bought a sports bra anyway. uncle said he lost toro's number ))): how sad.. cus of some fans who took his phone and whatever blahhs blahhs..... he accidentally deleted it away... hais.. hope toro would sms him a happy new yr!!! (((:

uncle chia finally understands that I HAVE GRADUATED from idol chasing.... wahhhahaas =X he introduced us to a group of fans just now.... i saw them before.. they're nice people with loud voices ((: haa. anyway uncle chia is reali FATHERLY.... haa.. love him too.... lols.... he asked me to slim down = =+ ~~~ ok ... i know (: new yr resolution............................. hais. hahahaa. and he told us cannot mix with hooligans blahhs blahhs..... naggy >.< haa.

ohyups... fiona's most likely gonna film a show with julian... i hope she does... though this role is not lovable at all... this role is much more scrupulous than HE YILIN (rway xiao qiao's role.. ) ...... hais.. i hope she would take up this role.. it's a challenge ((((: an opportunity (((: everyone pls support her !!!! she has worked real hard in mediacorp okaes.... love her too...

ky said im a changed person ~~ and she wants the old annabel back. oh well...... this was what i wanted since beginning of december... im glad she knows im changing. annabel in the past, was crazeee, was cheated by many people, and cus she doesn't want to be hurt, she's trying to change. to remove the stamps pasted on her eyes, and make more friends who have kind hearts. NOT those who would HURT her badly. pls don't make friend with her if you would end up breaking her heart. PLS. jus shun away from her. there's a bowl of soup waiting for me... lols.. reached home at 10plus = =+ my mum cooked my dinner.... bOoos.

lyrics

2005-01-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

lyrics are reali beautiful ~ but i don't have the knack for composing... hais ))): saw many jigsaw puzzles which are framed already...... so nice~~ stood there and admired them for quite some time... the princesses rawk.... cinderella, belle, aurora, snow white, jasmine... etc... i didnt know jigsaw puzzles can be this nice... hees... although i stl don't know how to fix.... hais.. all these are just excuses i suppose... i'm just lazy.. lazy...

going to town wif ky ltr.. hais.. i've been out almost everyday during the last week of holiday. i don't want to. it's so tiring...... blahhs. i'm reali DAMN SICKED of any idols except toro. idol chasing is plain stupid arrghs...... i left abt 36jiazu this morning... and today i'm going to delete many people from my msn list. and msn sucks........ max can onli take 150... don't care mans. im gonna delete delete!!!! arrghs. this song by stef sun "wo ye hen xiang ta" suits my feeling now. blahhs.

bluee...

2005-01-01T01:08:00.000+08:00

feeling pissed off ... blahhs. watched those countdown progs just now from 9plus at dar's hse... was waiting for toro's appearance... when it reached 2005, that "zhang fei" sang till the end. arrghs. then now i online ask datou .... she says his part already ended!!! hais ~~ saddds. another gurl stl tell me his was like 7++pm... arrghs.. i was stl shopping at JP i guess = =+ ....

bought a pair of slippers.... wanted to buy the shoe but no more size left... size 4 is the biggest = =+ .... hais im not feeling good now... I MISS HIM............... from shopping until now my entire MIND is abt him... arrghhs... by the way, we saw mrs chew, her husband and daughter, mr quek, toink toink, mr xie, me heng and his girlfriend.... his girlfriend is shorter than him....... lols... so many teachers ... haa... then i saw limin too.... hees... she was going for the countdown at boon lay..... well im right, you see, i don't even know fiona is going there for a countdown.. i don't even know there's a countdown in boonlay... can't be bothered with many things now..

very upset..... watched the frontline... saw so many dead bodies... asked my mum what's "tian zai" .... cus everywhr also got this word.. then she say the heaven wants to take away some lifes cus the world has a HUGE population.... i don't know ..... it's just unfair.. UNFAIR... it's true that every minute since i've came into this world, IS A MIRACLE .... now that im blogging, it's another miracle... pls treasure ur life and take good care of urself. im feeling BLUE.......

11am

2004-12-31T11:48:00.000+08:00

the weather's real chilly.. damn tired now. and suhua stl say wanna meet at 11am ... but you know what ~~~ we both woke up at 11am ! ..... i woke cus she phoned me.. yeas. i couldnt hear the alarm but could hear the phone call .. weird..... okay luckily we're not meeting any other ppl cus that person would get real MAD with us.. grace and i had promised that we ARE gonna sabotage her the next time round... she's NEVER PUNCTUAL. that time we met her half an hour ltr than the original time, she stl arrive at the same time as us.. we're gonna make it ONE HOUR. i don't care. BLAHHS/ though im not very impatient... haa.

love ya!!

2004-12-31T01:28:00.000+08:00

yos!! it's 31st dec !! hmms... jasmine jie's bdae !! haa. alrights im real excited for the NEW YEAR !!! hees.. or is it something else? hehs!!!! whatever it is. as long as you're reading my blog now, and you're my FRIEND, and i don't hate you, I LOVE YOU!!!!! great. i reali LOVE YOU!!!! KISSES from MEE!!!! wahahhahaas =x damn it i can't control right now. LOVE MY FAMILYY and FRIENDS and TORO KUO WEIYUN!!! lols~~~ boOooos!!! i'm reali looking forward for the 2005 !!!! oh yes ~~~!!!

tsunami

2004-12-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

searched abt the tsunami to know more .... i didnt reali know anything abt it actuali.. hehs. and what, 84000 is the recent death toll... hais. why take so many lifes at one go....? we never know what heaven's thinking... okaes i've finished studying circular measure. something i can be proud of! gonna continue studying more tmr... and finishing some hwks which are incomplete.. within 3days, i've donated $7 to wadeva association... QUITE BROKE now.. but since it's donation, better than splurging it on useless stuffs... yeas..

feeling exhausted now. but will train b3lb3l before i watch tv and zZzzzz....... on the brink of letting go.... *grins*

bursary

2004-12-30T01:13:00.000+08:00

my mum collected the bursary for me just now.. well, it nearly slipped out of my mind!!! my nap was like from 2 to 7pm. and then i realised that tdy is 29th dec!!! and we hafta register by 7.30pm!!! omgs ~~ so i came online to ask where the hell is bukit view pri... lols.. and actuali it's near my house... haa. dun even hafta take any bus.. not reali angry anymore.. more of SAD ))): and DISAPPOINTED.. hope i can let it go by this yr.. meeting at library tmr too.. wahhahas =X hopefully i would do some work over there... and not chit-chatting... haa.. gonna watch vcds now.. blahhs.

sick

2004-12-29T13:41:00.000+08:00

going back to sleep... tired ))): blahhs. 2005 is approaching..... VERY VERY SOON.... hope 2005 flies quickly.. hees.. sians~~ ky wants to see julian again tmr.. and i hafta get my chinese handbook back from her.. so i'll go.. not gonna work this week even though i asked rita ytd.. i don't care abt these artistes anymore!!! can't be bothered for another second. don't ask me anything regarding any celebs cus i'm very outdated now!! except for toro's news, i can answer...... and i can be bothered to find out for u... yups that's all... tired of idol chasing.. it's reali childish and stupid. wasted at least 2000$ from 1st march 03 till now on my idols... first was F4, then bae yong jun, then ENERGY. my energy magazines and stuffs pile up a hill and i don't even touch it. MAXI CAB is WORST. feel like advising those fans who're using maxi cabs now.. BUT i doubt they'll listen.. i won't listen if i were ME last time.. hais.. terribly sick. waitingggggg`

hMmss

2004-12-29T08:27:00.000+08:00

8.30am now/... hees.. slept 6hours earlier than my usual bedtime last night!!! lols.. fell asleep after the conference.. haa. 12am i guess?? but i woke up several times.. all cus my dad was watching tv from 12 - 6am... arrghs.. and i woke at 6++am.. kinda crazeee.. not sleepy now.. hehs. watched CNA and zao an ni hao abt the tsunami wave.. hais... then watched vcd.. then come online.. blahhs. waiting for grace come online play MS with her. haaa... cus she can't change shift with her idiot brother.. wahhahaas =X gonna haf breakfast today!!!! omgs!!! FIRST time during this holiday i'm having BREAKFAST???!! usually i haf my dinner onli.... hees... quite HAPPY now. the anger ................. might be over already.. hmms.....

2004-12-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

feeling sick right now. blahhs. going to sleep.

heee

2004-12-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

ok well. limin told me that julian was out with his fc today. he has a FC??? i was like LOLS... okaes.. anyway his new drama is "HUO XIA QU" .. i think so.. think JULIAN HEE treated his fans at MARCHE cus he was supposed to perform in some charity show but he didnt turn up???????? that's what i heard from *toot* = =+ i don't wish to mention abt suntec, it was just a waste of time.

met grace and shuting for lunch. arrghs. that suhua, organised this thing and ps us. >.< ~~~ found out something quite funny. hais. i don't know... i'm just angry due to some stupid reasons.. i've been waiting for something these few days.. hais ...... wil beam for some time if it comes to me.. but wil be frustrated if it doesn't. I DON'T KNOW ... spent few hours chatting... in LJS and JE library... couldnt concentrate at all. the time is just not right. but WELL, this is reali uncontrollable.

shivering

2004-12-28T11:43:00.000+08:00

basically, im shivering now. BLAHHS. my mum didnt switch off the air-con tdy >.< ... it's 11.43am.. meeting ky at suntec ard 12.30pm.. hehs.. my moood is crazeeee. at one time, i'll feel OK, and then out of a SUDDEN, i can be in REAL FURY ~~~~~ arrghs. why become like that?????? now im very buay song with a bunch of ppl.. tmd.. i think the problem lies with ME. yeas. BOOOS. reali don't wanna see JULIAN HEEEEEEEEEE. i just hate to see any artistes now. RAGE.

pms

2004-12-28T02:21:00.000+08:00

i'm experiencing something i can't describe it out here right now... and by the way, i think I HAVE serious PMS. i've been feeling EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED from ytd. AND this is uncontrollable. i spent a long time reading a few pgs of my chem guidebook just now. shucks. the ANGER is there since DUNNO WHEN. blAHHS. i just read something from somewhr . CRAPPOS...... arghhs. feel like giving that person A TIGHT SLAP and PLS keep those nasty comments to herself. *FUMING!!!!!!!* gonna watch tv. don't feel like seeing jul tmr. haiss. but nobody's accompanying ky there. so i hafta go. hais. PMS.

angry

2004-12-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

gotta wake up early tmr.. maybe 11am.. hais ~ cus ky wants me to accompany her to see jul tmr from AFAR. well, he's fliming a drama with joanne peh now... haa. it has been a LONG time since i last saw him.. 6october during the champs' press conference.. lols =X alrights luckee from afar... would meet grace and rest at JE after that.. blahhs. i don't know why im very angry now.. had been very confused of late.. ANGRY. TROUBLED. SAD. my mum doesn't understand my feelings too.. haa.. i just read from energy@toro, a liuyan "the dumb-est person on earth" .... rather touching.. hais >.< ~~ i miss toro. (((:

.... finally

2004-12-27T16:16:00.000+08:00

couldn't sleep well . that's why wake up so early. 3++pm .. slept ard 7++am .. 8 hours just nice actuali... chatted with suhua from 3am to 5am.. was reali frustrated. thanks for her accompany to 5am or else i don't know how to vent my anger. and WHAT. i guess i've told her everything. finally get them out of my chest. reali finally. though i've told ky. but she won't understand.

shall study ltr.. don't reali have the mood for internet. had not touched the books for a few days. blahhs. i stl haf phy paper 2, chem hwk, amaths radian to complete for HWK. and there's 3 upcoming tests next yr... some chpts for BOTH maths and whole syllabus for phy... sians- meeting suhua and maybe some others to study tmr. looking forward ... i need to talk more to them. going crazeee right now.

charity show

2004-12-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

my dear computer is screwed up.. you wouldn't want me to say the reason = =+ .... lols =X taufik and sly .... hais. i won't want to detest taufik..... BUT why is Singapore treating them like some GOLD !???? arrghs. whatever... taufik rawkks. shuai !!! saw one of the stories ... abt a sickly old man suffering from some disease .. and his SON is in JAIL. damn SON. heaven's reali unfair to make some people's life much more difficult than some of us.. tph rawkks too!!! he needs lots of courage to do that ... omltya! he did it!! hees..

haa... datou says my teeth is TIGER teeth.. very cute ... HAHAHA ~~ so don't tease my teeth ohh.... ^^ pplay MS boooos. grace is playing too!! she pro !!

party

2004-12-26T02:39:00.000+08:00

blahhs. hohoho. today was so fun. first time party with so many people hees.. illusion, ching, wl, suhua, ben and me!! lols =X but the exp reali LIL... ))): love it mans.. suhua's playing wahahhaas!! ^^ we took grp pix jus now!! haa!! took my nap from 4 to 7pm.. reali tired )): few more days to 2005!!! new yr resolution: study hard hard hard hard hard for this yr pls!!!!

the onli pic wif benjaminlorrr

ching and wl not cooperative .. haa ~

the 3gurls.. hehs.. f5 rawkks !!! love ching mans.. wEiyUn.. haa. my nick in the past = =+

gens of intelligence

2004-12-25T13:20:00.000+08:00

i read this liuyan from oLi.. sooo funny.. her liuyan is directly above mine and there's this particular sentence, it's almost the same as mine!!! i pity her as much as i pity myself.. i can understand how she feels. i think it's totally the same. SAME. we're on the SAME BOAT. my mind is reali full of WHYS. why? why? why?

i'm back from the wedding buffet.. listened to the adults chat.. and when the topic is diverted to me, it's like they THINK im capable of getting a scholarship and go abroad for studies. my mum's great. she likes to blurt out things i'd said to her although i didnt ask her to keep mum abt it. whatever. she told them that I said im the kind who would discard the knowledge after i exit from the examination hall. and that i told her not to pin high hopes on me.OH WELL... i did say that.. lols =X it's true anyway.

jen jie's the 1st person in anderson sec who leaves for new zealand for her studies. she's one from a rich family ya... it's so HONOURED to be the FIRST ~~ hees.. she says it's very relaxing over there.. reali free from stress. rather good opportunity yeas.. the guys there surely v shuai. that time shumin's display picture that boyboy, SO HANDSOME CAN! and the one i saw in hyatt... haa. too bad i didnt haf the courage to take a picture of him ))): BUT BUT BUT, i'll hafta work real hard to get it.. blahhs. im not a genius. but jen jie is. her dad is a professor can. her mum graduated overseas too.. well, genes of intelligence ~

merry christmas

2004-12-25T02:56:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! hees.. feeling better already after the msn convo. haa/.. nvm ~~ hmms.. had 2slices of yummy yummy log cake ~~~ my supper . lols =X i've yet replied the x'mas greetings in my hp.. hehs. will do it ltr.. i guess im not sleeping tdy blahhs. hafta wake at 7am okaes? to attend the wedding buffet ( not dinner ) ~~ yups.. reali a pity ... my uncle's getting married on christmas .. so romantic. BUT, the beliefs kinda suck .. if don't married now, can onli get married 3 yrs ltr = =+ cus my grandfather jus passed away few months back ~~ yeas.

WISH EVERYONE PINK HEALTH AND HAPPY ALWAYS (((((:
i haf a feeling i 'll forget to collect the bursary... 29dec okaes. so soon.. blahhs. dun feel like getting it./ but i need $$$

ps

2004-12-24T17:37:00.000+08:00

worst christmas. no more mood for anything else except for spending it with my mum and my computer. blahhs. i don't know what else to say besides SORRY for ps-ing lihui , wl and the rest. no more potluck for us~~ hais` don't apologise to me grace.. we both caused it. >.<

hypocrites

2004-12-24T01:32:00.000+08:00

you know, hypocrites click!! i know of an example.. blahhs. gonna continue MS after this.. 30 more % i can watch tv.. study... yays*

maybe it's true... arrghs. don't ever try to crack silly jokes.... or make any wild guesses.. you might REALI hit on the nail = =+ perhaps it's reali true... hais . tdy's "wo ye shi dj" is toro.. wuldnt be able to listen if the potluck is on.. had conference just now but nothing comes out ... lols..

bohoo

2004-12-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

last christmas i gave u my heart, but the evry next day, u took it away. this year, to save me from tears , i'll give it to someone special. blahhs. love this song muahahahahas =X

gonna haf potluck at someone's house tmr. lols. most probably i guess.. ok i just read something ridiculous from a jiazu just now. craps . didnt study last night. arrghs. was playing MS till 5.30am.. BOOs. cus i need to lvl up.. you know, from 11pm to 5am, i finally lvl up???! 6hours. HELL. then someone party me go PAO MEI MEI. lols.. so angry >.< ~~~ luckee got another friend accompany me til 5.30am.. haa. thanks lols. hohoho. lvl 20 ! muackks.

taufik album

2004-12-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

i've just preordered taufik's debut album... currently waiting for jan 22nd patiently . liuyan for toro about sly and taufik. then i thought..... it has been a year, toro hasn't had his debut album.. it's like merely half a yr for taufik and sly.. BLAHHS. luckee peeps.. >.< ~~ hate the sight of jungiery's calendar. sucks. except for toro. yeas // julian's on i wkly and 8days!! wahahhas. his car is stl the same (((: he said he had ferried almost all the females in the champs.. lols.. reali reminds me of his dumbity.. err. dumbity ??? haa. oh well, ky and me sat in that car before!!! jealous????? blahhs. lemme haolian ... wahhahas. =X wil not be chasing stars anm... balls~~ *csf lang* = =+

aunt cat brought me and grace to jack's place... i'm FULL. even though it's like 4 or 5 hours ago. i had grilled salmon fish, lobster soup, desert and tea, and seafood salad. hees.. love seafood salad ((((: but i prefer baked fried rice or whatever!!! didnt order that cus i've tried it before ... >.< ~~ i'm rather broke now... arrghs. after spending on the preorder.. yups.

just received the letter to collect the busary.. arrghs. i hate to go to the ceremonies.. >.< ~~ begged my mum to get i t for me.. but she refuses.. blahhs. hope i can persuade til she agrees to.. MS's on ltr!!! whoas!

huaxin! >.<

2004-12-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

nothing to do at the moment.. got logged out of MS all of a sudden.. think they had to update the patch.. forget it im not playing tonight... gonna mug yeas. and my teeveee. i hope i can watch xts tonight!!! ^^ cus im left wif 1 and a half disc of into the sun.. hees..

and by the way if you don't know, im not flower-hearted!!! *hua xin* i hate it when steph and lyana say that! although they might be joking or whatever, i just disliked it. i mean, who doesn't have more than one idol? and, it's perfectly normal if u go gaga over somebody u like isnt it??? i know im getting sensitive over these trivial issues.. BUT, arrghs, i just cant stand it!!!! i guess they haf more idols than me ehhs!!! >.< ~~~ kk im childish now i admit. hummpfhs.

kinda like yujie now... heard she just had an eye operation... hope she's okay.. perhaps she's just like fiona.. hees.. i think i'll like her if i visit her filming.. toro wants goatie.. lols.. =X from may till now.. wahhahas =pPp ehhs.. wl says MS can play already.. lols //.. forget abt mugging then.. bye. off to play!!! lols ~~

kevin???

2004-12-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

i've learnt a lesson today. never give any guys ur number !!!!!! someone named kevin phoned me just now... i nearly freaked out >.< ... he asked me to make a wild guess who he is.. blahhs. i reali don't know. he's interrupting my dinner and tv time.. arrghs. so i told him to tell me before i hang up his call. so he confessed he was kevin. since when did i know a guy kevin....i've no idea.

then he aasked me all the idiot qns. he called just to find out how am i. he asked if i haf a partner. and if i want? and then he asked if im open minded. i answered NO to everything. his voice is like so OLD. damn. im so angry .. he insisted he got the right number.. well, i reali dunno him !! but some time ago, there's a guy kevin somewhr.. i forgot whr he's from. but i bet he's not someone linked to me. i was reali scared at that moment..... suddenly i had the guts to tell him pls stop calling me in the future, im sorry. lols... hope it does work.

tears squirted out from my eyes while i watched eXtreme gourmet.. it's just plain gross... omgs. lizards ... = =+ i'll never agree to eat those exotic food even if im paid millions....

beware toro!!

2004-12-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

dreamt of zaizai and toro last night.. hees.. but in the dream, it was zaizai who gave up her job to be with toro.. lols =X funny . well, i knew it.... he disliked to be in typhoon yeas. he showed attitude cus of sun zong... according to what i read ... yups ((: they had some arguments.. anyway, guess what!!! BEWARE OF TORO !! he can know the size of ur bra at one look. lols!!! it shocked me!!! a lil scared to see him next time.. haa.

blahhs. it's 13days to end of holidays. >.< ~~ didn't study much. toro just liuyan to share a joke.. but the chinese is like, "chim..... " i don't reali get the joke... hais ~ how i wish im born in taipei.. i wonder how do the taiwan toro fans look like.. hmms.. i must go taiwan to see them one day... it's the 5th time toro said dt is "se" already.. lols. she's so luckeee.. she's crazy... haa. she kicked toro out of a tw yahoo club.. lols.

toro event!

2004-12-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

firstly, my latest record is 6.41pm ok? i made it!! *cheers* .. i've lost count of the dates .. blahhs. came online aft i woke up.. yuanhuan greeted me with a big grin (((: and told me that toro was in a GOOD MOOD today!! i can see that.. hees.. those fans who went today liuyan that TORO was very shuai today.. lols. wows!! happy for him.. haa. though i don't think he's shuai.. look ! haa.. it's blur.. cus i took it from fyzq's front page.. will ask her send a clearer one when i see her.. yeas.

the event today is like.. in a restaurant .. it's a fan gathering.. hmms.. 30 over fans.. that's like so lil!! omgs.. i reali envy them.. hees.. and wahhahas =X something happened during the event .. about datou!! lols. i forsee she IS as pervertic as toro = =+ . hahahhahaa. yuanhuan wrote her feelings abt today.. i feel so fortunate !!! ^^ .. although i wasn't there with them, i'm reali glad abt everything which happened in the restaurant.. i felt as if i was there .. gees.. toro is so nice to taiwan fans!!!!! of cus to all his fans too.. haa. ^^ ..

there was one incident abt yuanhuan, i felt it's somehow similar to mine.. toro was asking all of them how long haven't they seen him.. and aft a long time, yuanhuan was the onli one who answered, "hen jiu.... " .. lols! then she was so embarrassed!!! haa. like the one in top fun, i was the onli one who answered and everybody laughed, including that toro clapping = =+ .. lols. this reminds me of toro asking me when did he "chu dao" .. haha. we love him yeas!!! toro's loyal fans are one big familyy!!! wahhahahas =X

funny dream

2004-12-18T17:58:00.000+08:00

i'm crazy.. haa. took a nap which is full of interesting happenings.. !! I CRIED IN MY DREAM AND INTO THE REALITY!!! omgs.. this has never happened to me b4.. shall talk abt it in the ltr part.lols=X firstly, i dreamt the SAME OLD dream for 3times ( this is not very interesting, cus i think i've hit my 30 -40 times same dream record ). yups.. and then cus i'm afraid to dream of it again, i asked darren to wake me up if he heard me mumbling or hitting on something..( i would do that in my dream to wake myself up.. ) but for safety precautions, i changed my mind and asked him to call my name every 5mins. BUT IT WAS DAMN irritating. lols. cus he shouted my name so loud that i couldnt even sleep. finally after half an hour, (he woke me 30mins divided by 5mins = 6times ) , i stopped him from waking me up. and then i had a super nightmare. my family and relatives blaming me for getting 3F9s. .. in the dream ya.. they were like so disappointed. and they asked if i had ever regretted ( as in , chasing toro ). but i insisted, NO. and then i started weeping as if someone's dead. i reali SOBBED MY HEART OUT until i wake up, and found my eyes wet. i was reali crying in reality you know??!! lols. what an amusing dream!! there's even subtitles in my dream !! hahahhaa. i woke up and laugh like mad.. *stress* funniest dream i've come across..

craps

2004-12-18T11:42:00.000+08:00

blocked many people in MSN again. i don't know the reason.. BUT i definitely don't hate them.. just that i haf moodswings .. yeas. wil unblock you guys very soon.. apparently, im F**KING PISSED OFF AGAIN. i reali hate people to disturb my sleep can! F***!!! sorry to use that, but i can't help it, i'm BOILING WITH ANGER right now!!! i've no idea whose fault does this lies with. whoever the person is, i'm not gonna complain cus i DON't HAVE the GUTS.

blahhs! it's like 11plus in the morning just now, and outside my flat some idiot is knocking on the ceiling abv me continuously. TMD. all cus of that i WOKE from my sleep at 11plus, ( i slept at 6plus ) , open the window , having the intention to GLARE at the idiot. but i couldnt see him from my room's window. i had trouble finding my keys cus i misplaced it. hees. cooped in my house for some time already.. last was after sending toro off .. haa. ok back to the topic. so i unlocked the door to find that idiot. some shit can. i can't even see him. there's onli a small hole up at the ceiling i don't know whr he is. but the irritating sound goes on. WHATEVER !!! i'm wide awake NOW. gonna complain to my mum ltr.. >.<

my idol

2004-12-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

i'm damn pissed off now.. some shit news i just read. you know what! toro is demoted!! DAMN IT. and what typhoon. craps. their pay will be divided into 3parts. arrghs. and what now, typhoon's getting a lower pay than 7F. goshh. CONDEMN!!!! regarding 56jason beating up a reporter or whoever, BLAHHS. condemn!!!! >.< !! BUT WHO ASK 56 to be the MONEY TREE. damn . i'm glad to know that jason tried to bring toro out of jungiery. sighs..but it wasn't successful.. according to what i've read, jason had been sacked i guess..

you know, HUMANS are that realistic. one year back, sun zong openly said that he'll make toro earn lots more than he'd earn when he was in ENERGY. and now, after toro is caught kissing zai2, he froze toro and sacked zai2. as this would affect the popularity of toro, NOW he is demoted. blahhs. i reali can't bring myself to say he sucks. and i don't hate him cus at least he brought toro into jungiery and had given him quite many working opportunities..

anyway, jungiery without toro , reali sucks. i just liuyan for toro. i'll keep my word.. i reali wish he won't give up this entertainment.. i don't care where he is.. typhoon or whatever. it's not his choice. but if he is willing to work reali hard , i'll support him FOREVER. this word forever is kinda hard to come out of my mouth.. haa. but yeas, i told him if he can do it, i can too ^^. ... what attracts me so much to him??? haa. he's the best idol//

LOVE

2004-12-17T04:20:00.000+08:00

empty stomach. sians =((( cook cup noodles ? yuMMy... ** hees.. wait for my mum wake up 1st.. haa. okaes i've trained my lvl higher than darren already. that's all i need. lols =pPp.. lionel's friend has $3million !!! omgs- can gimme 100k to buy pots. hahaa. green day's boulevard of broken dreams' nice!!! hees.. look on ur left, there's the lyrics ~~ rawkking~~ haa.

grace is depending so much on me for motivation. wahhahas =X okok im gonna study chem RIGHT NOW! chpt 1. hahas.. nopes.. im not gonna start with that.. i hate that chpt. well, I LOVE MY MUM. i love my famileeee. REALi. my aunts , my uncles, my cousins. yeAs they rawkk my life. too.

ky ~~ study

2004-12-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

i love this blogskin too ^^ .. simple.. and i lurve purple ~~ hees.

hurrays**!! gonna start revising chem 1st..maybe will revise topic by topic.. that's how ky does it.. she spends 5hours on studying everyday . can u believe it!!!? she's much more lazier than me in terms of studying. IN THE PAST. blahhs. she's so fortunate ya.. working in her dad's company .. jus hafta answer phone calls and money rolls into her pocket.. AND she can study there.. sighs.. i can onli study on mrt.. haaa. (((:(((

blahhs.. b3lb3l jus died.. >.< ~~ and i didnt even realise i had lvl up ... gawwd.. kinda blurr. lvl 16 now.. 2 more lvls.. to upgrade my stuffs and everything.. yays*~~

8am

2004-12-16T17:56:00.000+08:00

it's getting worst each day.. slept at 8 in the morning.. lay in bed for an hour.. haa. intended not to sleep.. and buy BK breakfast.. then play MS until im sleepy.. but i stl fell asleep. had nice dreams (((: my bad dreams are over. yeas. my parents shdnt have sold this house. this is getting in the way of my major year.
goshh. i think MS is addictive yahs.. >.< ~ but at least i sleep EARLY in the morning for good reason. stl gt tons and tons of work to do. and to revise.. BLAHHS..

ms

2004-12-16T03:30:00.000+08:00

lalala (((: lvl 15 !!! yays~ wahhahaas. =X proud of myself.. i MUST train higher lvl than darren before he comes again~~!!! muackks.!!! 3E4 ppl ~~~ dun do culmulative freq hwk okaes~~~ cus we did it already.. haa. im so wise (((: checked it before i do.. hahahahahahhaa. LOLS ~~

lvl 12

2004-12-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

i don't think i wanna sleep at 7am anymore. i didn't break my record of sleeping till 6++pm.. BLAHHHS.. i tried SO HARD to SLEEP and SLEEP... but i stl wake at 6pm. and my bones are aching again. ))): hummpfhs! ohyes finally aft waiting for so long i have a pimple!!! GREAT! it had been months ... haa. gotta play MS~~ lvl 12 !! yays*

omgs

2004-12-15T06:55:00.000+08:00

it's 7AM the in MORNING NOW. you'll not be able to guess what i was doing just now.. i couldn't believe either... omgs. how i wish im like that everyday. haa.. i've wasted 3/4 of my holidays doing some rubbish i guess.. going to sleep already. i wonder what time i'll wake up ltr?????? lols =X

reply

2004-12-15T02:36:00.000+08:00

i can't tag my board so im replyin u guys here..

graces** im not chasing the 4 of them cus i've given up months ago already. sharleen** i do record the dates in my hp whenever i see toro.. haa. toro stayed in sg for like maybe 100days??!! min** im not pro-ded.. haa.. beginner. lols.. =X

one advantage in this maplestory.. i jus found out............ i can study while waiting for my MP to recover!! haa. stl playing.. now im waiting for MP to recover too.. haa.. heneseys rawkks ~~ won't die so easily i guess.. hees.. 13% more to lvl 12!!! yays!! i can buy my conehat at lvl 13 !! omgs~~

bpp

2004-12-14T19:28:00.000+08:00

jus reached home.. blahhs. went to BPP meet grace and pass aunt cat the discs.. she knows about that converse guy!!! omgs my mum blurted it all out.. >.< ~~~ she told aunt cat that i didnt allow darren to sleep early and force him slp as late as me.. !!!!!! hummpfhs!!! it's not like this ~~ he wanted to use the computer til 5am what... hahaa..

stole alot of money ytd.. in MS.. cus that guy using bot .. he kill and i take his money .. lols.. hope he won't find out.. haa. i go play awhile now..

MS~

2004-12-14T01:39:00.000+08:00

me! hahaha ~ playing now..

sians.. take so long to lvl up... >.< ~~ i must raise my lvl higher than darren since he's not staying here ... hahahaha. im waiting for my MP to recover now.. lvl 9 .. blahhs. i want a conehat!!! but need a lvl 10 requirement.. hais ~ i want the colourful conehat!!! that is worst.. think lvl 13.. hais ~~

new day

2004-12-13T14:32:00.000+08:00

it's a brand new day for me (((: graces asked if im gonna retire from chasing idols for a yr. yups !! "retire" is the word! haha. but i think "chasing idols" is incorrect.. it's onli for toro. haa. if xQ or yxs comes, i'll go.. provided i have the time ... lols. =X

guess what!!!! i've seen toro for 35times!!!!!!! omgs- see the dates..
2003 - 1 march , 14, 16, 17, 18 nov..
2004 - 1, 2 may, 19, 22, 23, 25, 27, 29 june, 2, 5, 10, 14, 17, 18, 21, 22, 23, 27, 30, 31 july.. 6, 8, 22, 24 aug... 2, 4, 5, 6 oct.. 10, 12 dec...

currently watching "into the sun" .. not a bad show .. but my mum says it's not nice. haha. well it's a funny show .. hwks!!!!! awwww... hell for me.. hais. don't reali haf time for MS.. dar finally went home. without him, i don't know how am i gonna cope. hahahaha. ky wants a shopping spree at the end of the yr.. blahhs. perhaps... hees.

supa funny

2004-12-13T02:02:00.000+08:00

i must blog abt this. super funny lols. dar say im the stupidest person in the world .. cus larry asked me to join party, and i asked him not to cus i can onli hit 1 damage a time.. and im too embarrassed to see his character too.. lols......... buay tahan siaaaaaa.. sooooo damn fuunny. me and dar laugh so long while my mum sleeping lols. WAHAHHAHAHAHA. but reali very paisae ma.. i can't even gain exp for him. LOLS ~~~~~~~~ byebye .. watch tv take supper liaos (((:

the last time

2004-12-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

don't be alarmed by my msn nick.. haa.. some people thought something happened to toro.. that's why this is the last time im seeing him.. lols.. saw uncle chia at airport.. he thought we pretended not to see him.. haha. and hello~~~ he doesn't believe that i'll not see toro next year!!!!! he said i'll sneak out to see him when he comes.. NO!!! i'll prove it ok!!

saw toro just now.. maybe about 2minutes???! blahhs. tried to pass him the letter.. but a security guard pushed me away. tmd.. feel like punching him. it's reali painful... ))): but forget it ... cus at least he told me to pass letters to agan those people.. but im afraid of agan ... hais ~ think they are not very friendly towards SG fans.. especially simon or whoever.. will send it to taiwan .. i can't trust those workers..

cried a lil. vv lil. upon seeing his departure... im glad he waved to the fans.. at least it's like, he DOES acknowledge your presence u understand ? haha.. he's often better at departure halls... love my talented idol.. hees..

ONE BIG THING WHICH SUCK.............
that gurl (wenwen) in double happiness won the "qing ping guo jiang" .. of all, im not satisfied with this most. joejoe or dahai would be a better choice !! >.< ~~ and secondly, I HATE TERENCE CAO. he cant act. he has this constipation problem in his acting. SUCKS BIG TIME.. and lastly, phyllis quek don't deserve the award. i thought fann won't get it this year. BLAHHS. i hate her too. best male lead award was a disappointment for me.. edmund chen acted it well what.. hais. but nvm... cus xie shaoguang is a born talent. haa

hate chasing

2004-12-12T13:53:00.000+08:00

i've decided to take a look at j8... wil try the airport if he's not there.. see, chasing is just so tiring. i HATE it. set my alarm at 9am ... but i was reali tired... thought for a long time before i finally told myself, "forget it.. let the last time i saw him be an unfriendly one... doesn't matter whether i can send him off or whatever... i just need some sleep and wake up to do some hwk. im jus sicked of chasing." then i reali went to sleep for 3more hours.. i couldnt sleep well last night. woke up a few times.. at 5am, 6am, consecutively till 9am.. anw had came to a final decision .. and even if i don't see him this time round.................... i must not be depressed. i think jing went tw already.. dunno got take same flight with any jungiery stars or not.. or wilber.. haa. hope it's a pleasant trip there.. but im so sorry i couldnt come to her help.. i've asked my close tw friends already.. hais/

mad

2004-12-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

this is driving ME MAD. the people i need to find are not online. BLAHHS. *FUMING* basically there're 3 main things . i don't want typhoon to exist. next, i don't know what time and when he's leaving. thirdly, i don't want him to be in bad mood. terribly UPSET now.. it's like to see him so sad makes me don't wanna give up chasing. .....

troubled

2004-12-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

*troubled* don't know when is toro leaving.... !@#$%^&*))*&^$#@#. jenny said he tripped and fell.. suhua said he tripped and nearly fell.. hahaa.. soo funny.. both of them were there but told me different things.. not doubting anyone!!!! but just trying to conclude in general, "people sees things differently (((((:" im pissed. PISSED OFF that there's reali a TYPHOON now. heard toro sing give it up, baofengyu, renwoaoyou... introducing typhoon... SIAN-DED. i don't want him to be in a group.. all thanks to sun zong. hais. but i still think he is cute. i saw someone who looks like jason outside the gym ytd.. but limin says he's not.. so, well ~ haa. thats good ((: BUT IM STILL VERY PISSED ...... WHY TYPHOON.... ? WHY JING NO HOTEL STAY ... ? (she's going to tw tmr.. ) WHY DON'T I KNOW WHEN IS TORO RETURNING TO TW? WHY IS HE STL IN A BAD MOOD? ))))))))))))))))): sad.

he dotes on fans..

2004-12-11T14:29:00.000+08:00

toro reali dotes on his sg fans.. or shd i say his fans. yups ~ REALI. REALI. don't blame him for being unfriendly ytd already. he's always the BEST idol. but tw fans are stl his favourites ^^ .. hees. jungiery concert is on tonight.. blahhs. i can't go. first time im not going to a concert he is going ???!! haa. cus my mum don't allow. hais. provided i know when he's leaving sg, that MIGHT BE the last time im seeing him. or else ytd was the LAST ... cus who knows i might not be supporting him anymore after o levels? though i don't reali think so.. it's gonna be 2yrs after 3 more months.. and i'm like supporting him everyday during these 2yrs. he gave me the best-est memories and the sad-dest memories. blahhs.

replay MS... lvl 7. sians. but nevermind.. i'll be a better magician since xinrui has taught me how to add my ability points!! haha

JJ!

2004-12-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

stl cant get over it haa... he's soooo cute... and he speaks english i guess.. ? cus he answered me in english when i stopped him.. lols =X saw so many celebs but he's the onli one i stopped ... hees.. jaime was telling me that my name is always heard during conversations.. omgs. like so famous can = =+ hahahahhahaha. and annabel is "the one who chases toro lor!" ....... just hope that those people are not talking bad abt me.. lols..

saw many celebs

2004-12-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

toro wore something like a singlet today ... blahhs. and he gave that ultra black face all the long. he didnt even wanna look at the fans! i'm like so afraid to see that in him... it's so fierce.. this is the first time he's so unfriendly.. ))): i made a mistake by going to expo and then hyatt just now. i onli saw toro , yxs and xiao cun in the airport. the rest are like, i don't even know who are they... haa.

at hyatt.. it's just my luck!!!! >.< !!! 5566 is like everywhere!! i saw them in the bathrobe.. and then at the lobby.. kinda sucks. the people whom i don't wanna see keeps appearing but that ONE TORO i wanna see is nowhere to be seen. BLAHHS. i saw many celebs tdy, besides those in jungiery. first was DICK LEE. and u know what. i entered the lift which i saw him coming out from!! he walked out of the lift, past me, and then i went into the lift. OMGS~~ i love him!!! but didnt talk to him .. nor did i ask for his autograph.. not interested in this anymore i guess..

second was ..... hmms.. maybe jamie teo. i think it was her. her hair was short and she was holding onto a malay/indian guy... and then MICHELLE SARAM... saw her about 3 or 4 times.. i hate her anyway. then OLINDA ~~ she's short. and LE YAO from mediacorp... and then... JJ LIN JUN JIE!!!!!! MY IDOL!!! FAV SINGER!!!! omgs. xinrui and jess saw him 1st.. and tailed behind him.. i wanted to follow but toro's more impt so i waited for him... so i gave up JJ.. but after that we saw him again!!!!! yays*** took a picture with him.. haa. ^^ happy!!!! first time take picture wif an idol of mine okaes!

zhaowei , fiona, chen jian bing, and one of the characters in new police story was there too.. but i missed them.. hais. nvm.. actuali i saw that NPS guy .. i just didnt realise he IS an actor. haa. according to grace , he was wif michelle saram.. lols. i don't know if i missed out anyone else but thats abt it.. i never seen so many celebs in a day man.. like, coincidentally? hmms.. hhaa.

i hate myself for going to hyatt today.. but at least i get to take a picture with jj.. hees.. love his songs.. kekes.. i reali hate to see 5566 tdy. i thought it's vv difficult to see them cus they're popular BUT i saw them most tdy. BLAHHS. besides michelle saram . stupid. but shaowei's rather friendly.. xiezhi 2nd.. renfu didnt smile.. yxs rawks!!! i saw him in his bathrobe too.. they were in the gym.. i hope toro will smile more tomorrow.. though i won't be seeing him .. i was reali upset to see him without a smile... he has a new hair... erms... lesser hair now.. haa. he looks good in any hairstyle ya.. he's my talented idol.. i didnt manage to pass my letter to him.. but it's okay.. i would be glad if i can exchange all the celebs i saw tdy for ONE TORO.... sobs..

failure

2004-12-09T15:22:00.000+08:00

blahhs. im stl at lvl 9 ))): i've died many times ... *sobs* my exp keeps decreasing... i wanna buy a magician hat!! it's so cool.. hees.. anyone who has maplestory add me okaes? the id is belb3l .. sians.. i need coaching from darren .. or else i don't know where to go.. hais.. im sucha failure at this kinda games~~

toro

2004-12-09T13:23:00.000+08:00

woke up very early ..11+.. was disturbed by an sms.. blahhs. came to finish my letter for toro. can u believe i typed a letter which is onli a page??! haha.. anyway i hope im able to pass it to him tomorrow.. i hope i would pass it.. i don't want to delay anymore. and i hope he's reali coming tomorrow.. luckily 56's in a different terminal. haa. i hope can see xQ and yxs too.. though i think my focus wil onli be on toro .. lols.

finished watching 20discs of stairway to heaven already ~~ it's a typical korean drama... blahhs. i salute to her stepbrother... but the ending is far better than kjw's drama.. lols.. at least it's not so sudden.. yups. kwan sang woo... that guy's name (((: i think he's a newcomer... haa. i watched zero ytd... and realised that a mother who brings her child and plunge down a flat is sinful and has to be sent to hell... omgs.. can't believe it.. it's like even if you committed a sin out of a good reason, you'll stl be punished in hell.. hais.. ohya.. i love the painting "stairway to heaven" .. it's just so amazingly awesome.. if heaven is a place whr there's no sufferings, no unhappiness, i'll work hard to go there... be a kind soul ((((:

police

2004-12-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

blahhs. come online to find some policeman. cus im FUMING!!!!!! hummpfhs. she didnt take my calls!!! and i bet she'd asked her friends not to answer mine too!! blahhhhhhhhss!! i asked less than 10people in msn... daniel's dad used to be a police.. my DA friend(suddenly forgot her name) 's neighbour is a police.. crystal's friend is a police.. emi is npcc de.. lols.. then it struck me that xueting's parents are police !!! hees.. waste my time ask around.. haa. toro's coming on friday... lalala ~ (((:

mad famileee

2004-12-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

hurrays!! mum bought a vcd player... i can watch vcds in my dear room again!!!! the living room is not my tv room anymore!!! lols~~ don't need to bring my blanket and bolster to the sofa.. wahahhaas .. i know "i love you" , "ya.. " in korean!! lols.. nothing big.. muahahahs. i think reali can confirm that toro's coming this week..blahhs.

i told everything to darren last night.. abt why i cry.. haa.. and i dreamt of the person who made me cry = =+ .. what a nightmARE!!!! dar told me we're all crazeee.... lols.. cus big bro studies til morning.... even later than the time i sleep.. i sleep at ard 4 or 5am usually (: and 2nd bro is crazeee cus he wakes up at 5am everyday to exercise and keep his body fit... lols.. and im crazeeeee cus i chase toro to whr he goes.. haa. and i say HE is crazeeee cus he plays the comp and watches tv all day long. lols.. we're a mad famileee! ??? haa

mapling~~~~

2004-12-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

shocked*** why has my blogger turn into chinese trad??? it was supposed to be in english what...... haa.

yays**** FINALLY for dunno how many weeks!!!!!!!! my maplestory has been repaired last night!!!!!! all thanks to dar's friend, terrence!!!!! love him!!!! muackkksss! he's experto mans! im at lvl 8 now. hees.. byebye! gonna play NOW!

blahhs

2004-12-07T21:36:00.000+08:00

after watching 10discs of stairway to heaven, the male lead is cute!! hees.. by the way, if clara u reading my blog, liu shi yuan coming to sg!!! omgs that so luckee... i wonder if kjw has come to sg before.. ))): kuai le yu 's meili........ her twins.... CUTE!!!!! lalala ~~~ read from newspaper that sly's gonna be the special guest in jolin tsai's concert.. haa. he's that famous now ya.. he's one luckee guy .. i think he has more fans than toro in singapore.

blahhs. 9 more discs to complete stairway to heaven.. got another korean serial by the same guy!!!! muackks.. hees.. love it.. i think his name is quan xiang yu.. lols .. learnt that father and brother are both OPPA in korean..... ? hmms... im now at the part whr both of them chose to remain as friends.. haa.. ... just went to a korean site which cla gave me.. theres a discussion abt which drama has the saddest ending.. for me..... hmms.... i can say xts has .... haa. but it's a korean dramas survey ... most people think it's glass slipper and autumn story... i remembered crying for a whole disc 2 while watching autumn story.. quite sad.. but i haven watched glass slippers.. haf the vcd but i think the leads are too old.. lols.. nvm shall watch it one day when im free.. shd be after o lvls.. cus we'll be busy after this dec holidays i guess..

SI

2004-12-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

yays* finally found the title of a song.. "karma " love this part .. "what goes around comes around, what goes up must come dwn " the song which jeassea and beverly lead is nice too!!! thanks to clara that song title is "independent woman" . haa.. i never listen to english songs in the past ... lols .. but im beginning to listen to 98.7fm now. .. jeassea is like so pretty and talented. shd haf voted her in last time.. blahhs. well it's too late to say so now.. so sad.. ))): i missed her performance.. i didnt see the episode which oli david and jeassea were in.. arrghs!!!!

the sicko!!

2004-12-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

i can't tag any blogs.. including mine ))): blahhs. my mum says my hair is TOO black... can't absorb the hair dye.. lols =X well, forget it ~~~ wait till the next time she dyes her hair.....

toro liuyan in the midnight ~~ he's so sicko!!! he asked why his jiazus have so many sex advertisements ~~ then he said if want these sicko things, he'll look for it himself.. so pls maintain the cleanliness in the jiazus.. he's trying to be funny ya... stl have the mood to jest... blahhs!

i don't like the male lead in stairway to heaven ))): i find the show rather boring now.. think cus i don't like the female lead as well...... and also cus i know the ending already ... i've been watching kjw's drama continuously for the past month, almost every nights.. hees..

i miss toro!!! the 2 places i never fail to go to whenever im online, or whenever i come online, are my blog and toro's jiazu ~~~ kjd and energy@toro ... hees.. received an unexpected call ytd.. perhaps big sis is reali right.. cus i might regret.. its wiser to keep my decision from some ppl .. and im glad i did so..

kjw!

2004-12-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

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i did a quiz.. and the result is him!!! muackks! omgs.. blahhs haa ~ jus saved more pictures of his.. checked at his yahoo grp.. he did film a drama this yr ^^ .. and another one i've yet buy.. hmms.. gonna watch stairway to heaven soon.. darren's in my house again ))):

korean serials

2004-12-05T19:51:00.000+08:00

tinted my hair.. but i'm not sure what colour is it.. not very obvious too.. haa. i've onli woken up for 4hrs.. blahhs. watched 2 discs of stairway to heaven.. freaking idiotic people in the show. youli and her mum sucks !!! i hate to see this kinda show.. super f***ing... BLAHHHSSS!!! tdy suddenly got 3 sets of korean serials for me to watch.. haa . liuyan to toro ytd that i'll rewatch xts after hou dou nu... but, so sorry nw ))): anyway, i dunno how!!! at least if youli is pretty, i won't be so frustrated.. irritating !!!!!!!! tmd.. but she's pretty when grown -up.. kk gonna watch kungfu soccer.. and then stairway to heaven again.. haa. stl haf a few more discs of houdou to complete.. hais ~~ no time for hwks ~

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2004-12-05T04:01:00.000+08:00

i feel like talking some sense into him!!!! can he wake up???! what's making him so dejected?? what can actuali make him give up the people who cares for him??? perhaps i shouldnt haf asked her why she's starting to hate him.. i guess anyone of us would hate him if we know the truth.. IM REALI USELESS!! i hate myself not able to cheer him up.. i hate him... i wish she can save him .. i hope he listens to her. i don't want to see her sad too..

don't give it up..

2004-12-05T02:07:00.000+08:00

it isn't very nice for me to know so much at times. but i can say that something's not right with a person whom i care a lot for. i dunno what's happening.. i just hope he'd pull himself tgt. i want to know the reason of his decision for an occasion tdy... but im ending up as worried and depressed as the friend who told me the truth.. i can't do anything.. cus i can't let anybody else know.. i can't even encourage him . i feel so useless. we don't want him to give up.. i nearly cried when she told me the truth... i hafta thank her for trusting the secret to me ... but this is bothering me too much. somebody pls save him.. i pray...... let this be my advance xmas wish.. i pray that he don't give up the people who has walked him throughout this long long journey.

taiwannnn

2004-12-05T01:00:00.000+08:00

envy limin****** blahhs. it's soooo fun reading her blog abt the tw trip.. kungfu lessons.. went to recording studio of zong yi da ge da.. saw stefanie sun .. omgs. though i dun lyk stef.. yups. and passed by toro's university.. gone to zong zheng ji nian tang.. whr eg held their 1st (829) concert.. and many many other places which is well known.. omgs.. i dream to go there one day......

slacking... blahhs. i lay the hwks on my study desk before chalet already.. but have not touched it since. lols =X i don't wanna copy the maths hwks!! i MUST finish them by myself.. pls.. i hope i can do it.. dreamt of having 4shows to take last night.. was on cloud nine.. finally can earn $$.. but it turned out to be a dream yahs.

i don't have the nightmares for some time.. guess its all over yeas.. pls don't come to me anymore.. hmms... im trying to erase some unwanted memories.. was kjw at "jin ma jiang" just now ... ? hope theres a replay for it.. i wanna catch him.. hees. andy lau got the best male lead award.. haaa. happy for him.. lols.. i just liuyan for toro... there's a sentence which i pluck out from my head... and told him i'll remember it... i forgot who told me.. but that person who told me jus chatted wif me.. and i found out a secret. i love this secret . muackks!!! it's abt toro again.. hees

yuanhuan and min

2004-12-04T18:14:00.000+08:00

im so glad that limin and yuanhuan are back online!!!!!! muackks! i miss them soooo much!!!!!!!! haven read limin's blog.. she says she wants to go back to taiwan cus it's very carefree over there... without parents i guess??!! hees.. and yuanhuan has not been online for a long long time.. haa. she's my best taiwan friend ^^ . to see them online when i come online is a VERY BIG PRESENT !!

i would have talked to either of them rather than my present big sis if they were online.. haa. but anw it's just too coincidental .. both of them had not been online for so long, and they appeared at the same time after so long. lols ..

i forced myself to watch a disc before i sleep.. haa. slept from 3am to 5pm.. shuangs. wasnt disturbed at all. but it'd be better if i slept from 3pm ytd until......... im satisfied. lalala ~ im sure im wide awake now. (((: gonna change my blogskin ltr..

crazeeee

2004-12-03T20:48:00.000+08:00

blahhs. went to the community centre to submit that bursary form.. then they say need the payslip. waste my precious time to go there .... arrghs. they didnt even state in the letter. sucks.. i haf no bus to go there. except if i take 2 buses, each onli a stop. crazeeee.. and i hafta walk the overhead bridge too.. blahhs. it's sucha long way home by bus 11 .

and then i came home, surf the net, and dozed off .. set the alarm at 6++ ... this is the last day i can submit my form . arrghs. shouldnt haf dragged this long. don't know if its the few ( reali FEW) sips of beer which made me very dumb now. i walked to the CC wif the payslip and all, and i felt i was somehow sleepwalking. i just got this feeling i wasnt awake at all. dragged myself all the way there. came home, and now my mum's telling me i left the house keys hanging in the keyhole. blahhs.

i can't remember certain things well now. sleepy..... but i miss my "hou dou nu " ... hope i can last till abt 5am later.. actuali that time my insomnia record of abt 33hrs is NOTHING..... anyone can just tolerate that easily.. but the exceptional thing in my experience is that im stl very energetic after the 33hrs. yeas.

all i hafta conclude is, sean and onli him. it's just for the sake of fun for me to like someone now lols. not anything else lols. studies impt ((((: blahhs. don't know if limin's back from taiwan already .. i hope so. she's just one of the very nice people i'd known. yups. think im most likely not gonna see toro again. don't feel like it already. it's true that i rather not wanna like ENERGY last year if i know what im getting back in return. im jus sicked of it. the money, the ingrateful friends whom i made friends with. it's enough. but i reali reali do support him stl. it's either i pass him a letter if he's reali coming, or i shall ask my tw friends to pass it to him.

i wish everything since 28th feb last yr was a nightmare. i don't want to lose the trust i haf for anyone. im not sad over that thing which bothered me 2days ago.. im not crying over it anm... but im angry....